First of all, I am very happy to be turning 40 (it's better than not ever turning 40). I started my day by hearing "Hewp, hewp, I can't find my zipper!". Zach was stuck in his sleep sack & was trying to unzip it himself (he can, he just had a hard time this morning). Really, that was a pretty awesome way to be woken up.
3 years ago, I was pregnant & didn't even consider that my 40th birthday would have any other option. I didn't know that on my 38th birthday, my 9 month old (who was really 6 months old) would be diagnosed with a cognitive & gross motor delay (for his adjusted age). At that point I wondered what life would be like on my 39th birthday.
At 38, I was also trying to settle into the single mom role, the mom of an ex 25 week preemie who now had delays (not unexpected, but still). (I am so glad not to be 38 any more, that was a hard year......as was 37). The cognitive delay was quickly gone & the gross motor is just a small issue now. I am grateful for those years, as I became a mother & I found strength that I didn't know was there. I have settled nicely into my role & my life as it is. Without those two hard years, I don't know that 40 would have been as appealing as it is for me.
At 38, I was also trying to settle into the single mom role, the mom of an ex 25 week preemie who now had delays (not unexpected, but still). (I am so glad not to be 38 any more, that was a hard year......as was 37). The cognitive delay was quickly gone & the gross motor is just a small issue now. I am grateful for those years, as I became a mother & I found strength that I didn't know was there. I have settled nicely into my role & my life as it is. Without those two hard years, I don't know that 40 would have been as appealing as it is for me.
I spent my day running errands as I do every Monday, cooking, picking up, taking Zach to school etc. I spent my day hearing "Mommy drive the rainy, gray Mazda 626 to school!", Mommy, the Honda Odyssey is missing!", "Mommy, it's a BIG Ford Tundra TRUCK!" (can you tell....he likes cars?) and my favorite "I ride home in the sunny Mazda 626 with my mommy!"
I realize that my birthday post has really turned into a post about Zach, but that is my life. He centers me & he grounds me. For that I will be eternally thankful.
I leave with a picture of Zach doing his favorite activity......looking at cars.
Sounds like a pretty good day, and a nice way to start another decade. Heres to be older and a little bit wiser (those 25 weekers will do that to you :)).
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